Sunday, November 8, 2009,
Realization
These past few weeks have been probably the most stressful weeks I’ve had in a while.
I thought coming back for another semester would be easier than the 4 years I was there - clearly I was so wrong. It has topped it and not by a little but a lot. I have never been so
Worried about grades in high school, I’ve always been so chill about it. This time it’s the total opposite. I’ve never stayed up until 530am to finish my assignment, call me crazy but this part of my life is the most important time of my life. It’s the part that determines my future and I haven’t realized until now.
I have to say, the only reason I realized this was because of 3 people who has pushed me, knowing I could do anything I put my mind into it. It’s sad to say this, but they were RIGHT! One friend always told me that I could get into the university I wanted. Though I never really believed him before, but as he helped me this past few weeks I feels like my future is somewhat closer than I have expected. Truthfully, I don’t know what I would do without this guy. Before, I thought “I can‘t get close with this guy, are you kidding me” but as I’ve got close to his guy he taught me how to be true to myself and to people around me. Like if I didn’t like something about someone, I would just keep it to myself but with him - I could easily tell him what’s on my mind and believe it or not, I feels so good to just let all those feeling out. However, I couldn’t just stop there. He has done more for me, he taught me to respect myself and to analyze all the information that has been provided to me. Before, I would just believe everything someone would tell me. With his help he showed me that it’s not enough to believe that the person is telling the truth and whether the information is true or not. - taught me more than how to be a good friend but how to be open minded, believing that the future could actually be possible. That’s why he’s like the closest guy friend I have right now. I’m so lucky.
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