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Monday, August 24, 2009,


Have you ever had a friend who you knew had feelings for you and
has expressed his feelings time and time again.
However, since you’re so afraid to start liking someone again, all you
can do is try to change the subject or just give him a pointless answer.

You deserve the truth,
because that’s the only thing you’ve been giving me.
You may sicken me with some of your comments,
but I do find some funny.
So, here’s the truth.

Truth is.
I don’t know what I want to do
when it comes to you.

You tell me that I’ve been holding back
You say that you’re different and that you won’t
let my biggest fear come true, if I chose you.
Is that really true, or are you just telling me
what I want to hear, just like all the others.

Truth is.
I’m so tired of the “same old, same old” in my life.
I feel like I need something new to happen.
But the problem is I see so much of the past people
I dated- in you.
And that’s not what I’m looking for now.

Truth is,
Most of the things in this song are true..
“I smiled enough
I flirted enough
I posed enough
Got freaky enough
Took pictures enough
Conversated enough
I sipped enough
I got enough…”
But, that was in the past.

Truth is.
I’m not looking for someone at the moment. (or well i think)
I’m happier not having to worry that I’m hurting someone
because of my actions. Believe it or not, I’m happier spending
time with family nowadays and not fighting about “boys.”
I have never been single for this long to realize how much
my family and friends love and care for me as much as they do.
I’ve never really appreciated my family for what they’ve
done for me, until now.

Truth is.
I’m really happy with my life now.
I know that you like me a bit and I know when something
I do is bothering or has affected you.
And if you haven’t noticed,
I hate when you’re mad so I always try to losing
up the situation.
I love how talking it through makes it somewhat better.
I love how you haven’t given up in trying to get me.
I gotta tell you the truth though, it’s cute when you
get jealous SOMETIMES. Other times, it’s gay and
I don’t quite understand it since you hardly know me
And you know the rest.

Here’s the truth you really want to hear.
I’m afraid I’ll fall for you when that day comes.
I’m afraid you imagined me as something I’m not,
And I guess I don’t want to disappoint you.
I’m tired of disappointing people I care about, and
I’m tired of being that cold hearted girl.

But truth is…
I’ve tried to change for myself, for my family, and
I’ve tried my hardest for my ex but it didn't work.
And so I guess I need more time for this change.
until then, i can't promise that i'm not going hurt you with
the things i do and say.

Let's be real to each other...
You and I are better being friends,
I personally can't image my life without you
being my friend.

So, let's not ruin this good friendship,
one day I know you'll thank me for this...
Until then I had to me truthful to myself and
most important you.

4:27 PM